Can I just be honest for a second?
Telling the world your adopting is SCARY BUSINESS! As hard as its been to keep this secret.... At the end of the day, it's safe here. Just us. Chris and I and our sweet social worker. And I kind of like it that way. Until recently, this blog has served as a safe place for me to pour out my heart. It's been a locked journal. Sharing that.... Errrrm Vulnerable doesnt even begin to describe it. I keep catching myself playing the "what if" game. What if this really isn't possible? What if family or close friends aren't supportive? What if something completely out of our control brings this process to a screeching hault? What if my heart breaks in a million pieces for anyone reading to see? What if our intentions are misunderstood? What if the words on these pages come off all wrong and I offend someone? What if. What if. What if. Easy to tell myself "don't worry what others think" but let's just be real.... We all care what others think to some extent. And inviting so many in on such an intimate, real, raw, uncertain, scary, out of our control journey... Walking that out in real life.... That's scary. At at least for me it is. So please. If you are reading this. Please read the words on these pages with grace. Know I mean well but am far from perfect. I'm by no means a blogger or a writer. I will most certainly spell things wrong, say things wrong, and maybe even come across wrong. But hear my heart. We are just a family staring down a crazy, 'larger than us' adventure in need of a tribe of folks to love us despite it all. And that's where you come in. As scary as it feels to be vulnerable, I know this journey is impossible without each of you. Your love. Your prayers. Your encouragement. I know that. So on that note.... I'm gonna go locate my big girl panties, share our secret with the world and trust the Lords got this thing!
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We've been anxiously awaiting February to get here... February 20th to be exact.
On February 20th I'll be exactly 29 1/2 which means we can officially put a little bit of action behind all of this talk! As that date approaches its getting crazy real just how much this is all going to cost.... And because I'm a slight control freak I had a minor... ok somewhat major freak out sesh a couple weeks ago. So I hopped on the phone with lifeline to ask 1000 more questions and got the initial fee breakdown. And guess what!!!???? That sweet lady told me I was close enough to 29 1/2 that we could go ahead and apply THEN!!! Eeek!! Months and months of waiting....just to start the adoption process.... We weren't wasting another second! So naturally we applied that day ;) The application was very thorough and included several essays. Quite the spontaneous undertaking... A week or so later we got a phone call OFFICIALLY ACCEPTING us into the China program!!!! After giving them all but a blood sample we felt pretty darn proud! Ya'll.... This is really happening!!!! It's not a dream anymore. It's not a conversation anymore. It's REAL!!!! Its a teeny tiny step in the grand scheme of things, but it's still a step! So we celebrate :) Hosanna we are officially on our way! |
Hi There!My name is Elizabeth! I'm married to Chris Vann. We have two beautiful little girls, Ava - 4 and Eden Grace - 10 months. We are on the journey of a lifetime to bring our 3rd VANNKID home! Our prayer through this experience is that the Lord would be greater and we would be less and that He would use our story to encourage others to develop an intimate relationship with Him. ArchivesCategories |